processing pain, karmic debt and coming out
Jul 2, 2008 Personal
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July 2nd, 2008 at 10:52 pm
Well, I’m still here – reading what you post, because I find your take on things intelligent and fascinating. I certainly hope whatever direction your life takes you next you’ll see fit to share some part of it with us here.
July 3rd, 2008 at 6:44 am
Ian,
Thanks for being around! I am surprised anyone is still reading here.
I do plan on sharing, good and bad. At least as much as is prudent.
XX
July 3rd, 2008 at 3:30 pm
I hope things get better for you, Amanda, even just a little bit at a time. These things don’t happen fast (as you well know). I’m here if you need me.
July 4th, 2008 at 8:28 am
Thank you Amber. Good to know you’re still around too.
XX
July 4th, 2008 at 3:36 pm
Amanda you have lots of friends who love and respect you, and who will stand up for you if they know you are in need. Don’t hesitate to draw on the solidarity of the profession and their friends.
July 4th, 2008 at 4:35 pm
Amanda, echoing Michael Goodyear, do please let us know if there is any way we can be helpful. There is a community of people out here who care a lot about you.
July 4th, 2008 at 8:51 pm
Glad to see you’re back and hope all goes well for you. Its been a few months since I ran into you.. still have to take you up on getting a meal or coffee sometime
Take care and email me if you ever need anything
July 5th, 2008 at 7:27 am
Michael, Elizabeth, LV Courtesan,
Thank you all. This does prove my point, beautifully.
And LVC, we will have to meet for coffee.
XX
July 5th, 2008 at 1:01 pm
“The pain I’m still dealing with is what happened to me and how/why I let it happen.”
Oh my…I surely understand this one…perhaps the hardest one to integrate.
I know you’ll do well in the end, and the going can be two steps forward, one back. But you’ll get there. In the meantime, isn’t it lovely to keep remembering your friends (as it seems you do) and to be able to call upon them when you need to? The world is a lovely place with lovely people. The good weighs out the bad by leaps and bounds.
Keep smiling and good luck in your new life!
July 6th, 2008 at 8:18 am
So…..we meet a-gain Ms Brooks! Well. You have not been forgotten. Not by a long shot.
July 6th, 2008 at 8:29 am
Gillette,
I thought you might have perspective on this. Yes, I do keep reminding myself to count my blessings. There are many people who are those blessings.
Bosca,
Nice to hear from you, my MIA friend.
XX
July 6th, 2008 at 11:04 am
You don’t be a stranger either Ms B. You also have my new email addy now.
July 7th, 2008 at 7:48 am
Bosca,
Yes I do!
XX
July 7th, 2008 at 12:08 pm
Amanda
things seem to work out once you begin to move forward. you.ve made a positive impact on lots of people over time, and i’m sure that they will remember you with kindness. i know that i surely do
rex
July 7th, 2008 at 10:28 pm
I agree with Rex. I have been reading your blog for quite awhile and have been tempted to chime in on several occasions. It never seemed a good time. There are many people out there that remember you with kindness and count their lives better for having known you. You have my condolences. People come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. The trick is to take the best with you.
July 8th, 2008 at 6:49 am
Rex and Michael,
Thank you — both of you. My friends have been repeating what both you have said: it gets better and there is a reason for everything.
XX
July 9th, 2008 at 11:51 am
There are several SEVERAL of us that are dearly wishing for you to return to the Dallas area. Even if only for a brief visit. We all love you and miss you.
July 10th, 2008 at 6:53 am
Randy,
Thank you!
Dallas isn’t in the cards at this very moment. Chicago is though: Desiree Alliance Conference!
XX
July 12th, 2008 at 8:10 pm
No regrets. Just revitalization, revival, restoration, rediscovery…
Standing up straight is only achieved after falling down…alot;)
Falling down isn’t so bad when you have arms to pick you back up.
Lily
July 12th, 2008 at 8:48 pm
That’s right. As Lily said: No regrets. Revitalize, restore and reconnect.
Good luck at Desiree Alliance conference. Have a great meeting and enjoy.
Take good care,
Ari
July 13th, 2008 at 7:08 am
Lily,
I knew I could count on you to cut to the heart of the matter. Thank you.
Ari,
Thank you for your long-term support. Yes, I will enjoy the conference!
XX
July 14th, 2008 at 7:47 pm
For me, the deepest valleys of life produce the best fruit . . . it may never be fun in the valleys, but there is a purpose for all things.
Cheers,
Mark
July 15th, 2008 at 6:59 am
Mark,
Yes, and I’ve been through that valley before. It’s not fun though and I’d rather avoid it entirely.
XX
July 17th, 2008 at 6:31 pm
It was great to finally meet you in person today, Amanda and I look forward to your presentation on Friday (kinda disappointed it had to be pushed back!) and most definitely for the book. The final decision of course rests with you alone, but I say go for it. If you’re feeling good about re-entering the business then do it. And you obviously have fans out there that will probably throw a party for you upon your return. That’s kinda cool! Buena suerte and bonne chance!
July 21st, 2008 at 8:52 pm
You know what I think about it! Think of the rates you could command by doing that? I mean, your clients would literally be going out with the “woman who wrote the book” on escorting.
July 22nd, 2008 at 6:37 am
Alexa,
Yes, I know! Talk about performance anxiety from my end! But it would give police something high-profile to do — that’s the real problem. It might also give people who have issues with me (and what I’m doing) something to do as well.
But I think I have a solution…stay tuned!
Aspasia,
It was GREAT to meet you and all the long chats we had. Wish I’d been able to check my blog and discuss this with you while we were there, but I wasn’t able to hook up to the Internet anywhere.
By the way everyone, go read Aspasia’s blog. She is just the cutest, most fun Chicagoan.
XX
August 2nd, 2008 at 5:21 am
Amanda,
You had a great presentation at the conference, lots of helpful tips! I am a former male worker who is also thinking about unretiring since being at the conference. Honestly, I miss it, the money, the feeling of “control” you get. and the conference showed me that there is more support out there than I had thought there was for sex-workers. I wanted to say Hi at the conference but was too shy, plus I was exhausted from a long night and fell asleep at the couch next to you. Anyways, thank you for the talk, book and blog.
Roberto
August 3rd, 2008 at 7:32 am
Roberto,
Wish you’d said hi! I love meeting new people at the conferences — that’s the big fun for me.
VERY glad you found my presentation useful. I’m happy to answer questions you have about using those concepts.
And yes, there is a TON of support out there for sex workers BY sex workers. It’s the only real support we get — and it is good! Keep reaching out to everyone you met. It’s so important. I’ve discovered this over the past year.
Hope to see you next year?
XX
August 27th, 2008 at 12:37 pm
Hi, Amanda
I have some thoughts and suggestions regarding the Bellas experience and the coop idea that wouldn’t be appropriate for the blog. Would you email me your email address so I could share them with you